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{Bubblegum Alley, San Luis Obispo, California} I know that the end of year 2015 is fast approaching, but I’m declaring a resolution for the remaining months: to be spontaneous and feel free to explore.  The restrictive years of medical education, training, and work, can be so draining.  Some of you may know that I work in clinic part-time … Continue reading

Find The Light
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Find The Light

{San Luis Obispo, California} Sometimes in the darkest moments, it’s hard to imagine that there’s light at the end of the tunnel.  Friends, family, or therapists may try and provide reassurance that life gets better, things get better, fate will lead you to something better, and that you deserve better.  Such thoughts sound so passive in nature, … Continue reading

Summertime Sadness
Psychiatry

Summertime Sadness

{Santa Monica, California} I’ve been intermittently unmotivated lately and am trying to analyze the reason why.  Then I realize how hot, humid, and sweaty I feel as I scroll Facebook and view photos of my friends’ fabulous summer vacation trips as I sit at my desk all by my lonesome.  Perhaps my current mood is triggered by … Continue reading

Finding Your Way
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Finding Your Way

{Yountville, California} I woke up yesterday morning with a sense of dread and struggled to get out of bed, yet ended the day feeling energetic and liberated.  Lately, I’ve been making conscious efforts to prioritize myself for the sake of maintaining my sanity.  As a result, my mood and anxiety levels have improved almost instantaneously after … Continue reading

Overcoming Social Anxiety
Psychiatry

Overcoming Social Anxiety

{Claremont, California} To continue my series on conquering our fears (see Part 1 here), Part 2 consists of one of the more common phobias: Social Phobia.  I struggled with social anxiety since childhood (as I discussed in a previous post) and often felt uncomfortable in any situation that involved interacting with people. It wasn’t until six years … Continue reading

Conquer Your Fears (Part 1)
Psychiatry

Conquer Your Fears (Part 1)

{Lake Tahoe, California} At the request of one of my awesome readers, I am writing a post on conquering our fears.  Being an ENFP personality type (Extroverted, Intuitive, Feeling, Perceiving), I interpreted this in a more global, existential sense: getting over the fears and barriers that may interfere with moving forward in life and/or discovering one’s … Continue reading

Set Free
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Set Free

{International Rose Test Garden, Portland, Oregon} Okay, I’ll be honest.  I’d much rather watch a documentary on Netflix (anyone have any suggestions?) and let my mind wander than write a blog post right now.  Escaping to Oregon earlier this week for the first leg of my vacation provided a perfect combo of nostalgia, tranquility, and connection. … Continue reading

Open Doors
Personal / Psychiatry

Open Doors

Up until a few years ago when I graduated from residency, life appeared to have a linear, predictable path: obtain high school diploma, finish undergraduate degree, get accepted into medical school, graduate from residency, secure a well-paid job as a psychiatrist. Yet, throughout the entire process, I encountered several challenging experiences trying to adjust to each new phase.  When … Continue reading

Thankful Thursdays
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Thankful Thursdays

{Los Angeles, California} I haven’t done a Thankful Thursday post on my blog in awhile (though I do a weekly “Thankful Thursdays” series on my Snapchat account), but figured I’d do one this week especially since my two week vacation is coming up the following week, which I’m long overdue and looking forward to.  As I … Continue reading

Personal Independence Day
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Personal Independence Day

{Malibu, California} I recall previous 4th of July holidays spent working in the hospital, or on-call with my pager held tight as I nibbled on barbecue anxiously anticipating a flurry of calls regarding the behavioral management of alcohol-intoxicated patients.  This year, however, I am free from the responsibility of being on call, free from the hospital, free … Continue reading

Brighter Days
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Brighter Days

{Napa, California} I am so appreciative of the supportive comments I received after sharing my personal experience of physician burnout.  I’ve had similar experiences, especially during medical school and residency, but never felt comfortable enough to share until recently.  In my practice, I work with so many patients who suppress their emotions.  I identify with them wholeheartedly … Continue reading

Out of Isolation
Medicine / Psychiatry

Out of Isolation

{Calistoga, California} I noticed that my latest posts convey far less emotion than usual.  My reserve for tolerating stress had reached maximum capacity, which I realized upon my first day back at work from vacation three weeks ago as exhaustion immediately erased any sense of relaxation from my trip.  Perhaps I should have requested two weeks off instead of … Continue reading

Reconnect
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Reconnect

{Miami Beach, Florida} Lately, my ability to write and stay connected via my blog and social media requires far more effort than usual.  I’ve written in previous posts that when life gets overwhelming, one of the first things that fall to the wayside is my blog.  I’m trying hard to stay consistent on posting because the … Continue reading

Reset, Recharge
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Reset, Recharge

{Miami Beach, Florida} I talk A LOT about mental health (in case you haven’t noticed), so I’ve appreciated the opportunity to put psychiatry-related thoughts aside for the last week while on vacation.  And I haven’t psychoanalyzed one thing while in Florida, which is a record for me!  I recognize how burned out I was getting, especially … Continue reading

Much Needed
Lifestyle

Much Needed

{Miami, Florida} I’m constantly testing my limits as to how long I can continue working before I become extremely stressed-out and less pleasant to be around, which usually indicates I’m overdue for a vacation.  When I scheduled my vacation months ago, I had a feeling I’d be overexerting myself having too large of a time gap in … Continue reading

Being Me
Personal / Psychiatry

Being Me

{Chino, California} My group therapy session last week left me feeling rejected, embarrassed, sad, self-conscious, and angry (all in that order).  Somehow, I became the focus during group and the subject matter stirred up emotions of being an outcast preteen, which I thought I’d outgrown.  I didn’t have very many friends in elementary school.  Kids often made fun of me and singled … Continue reading

A Cluttered Mind
Personal / Psychiatry

A Cluttered Mind

Current state of mind = disorganized. My typical morning routine before heading to work looks pretty turbulent and disjointed.  I usually hit the snooze button several times, check my email and various social media accounts in bed with my eyes half open (and probably “like” the most random, obscene pictures on Instagram and Facebook while in a … Continue reading