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A Cluttered Mind
Personal / Psychiatry

A Cluttered Mind

Current state of mind = disorganized. My typical morning routine before heading to work looks pretty turbulent and disjointed.  I usually hit the snooze button several times, check my email and various social media accounts in bed with my eyes half open (and probably “like” the most random, obscene pictures on Instagram and Facebook while in a … Continue reading

Mother’s Day Note
Personal

Mother’s Day Note

{Napa, California} Oftentimes, I observe my mom and wish that I could match her levels of energy, thoughtfulness, and ability to multi-task.  Fortunately, some of her traits were passed on to me, though I still hope for late-onset development of her culinary skills.  Even as an adult, if I’m ever out of line or “misbehave” in any way, my mom is the … Continue reading

Trapped In A Role
Psychiatry

Trapped In A Role

I met some of my most memorable patients while moonlighting on an inpatient psychiatric ward during my final year of residency.  One of the patients I was assigned to was labeled as the highest-risk for agitation (he was restrained and placed in seclusion two nights prior), so the staff warned me, remained on standby, and closely … Continue reading

Home Sweet Home
Personal

Home Sweet Home

{Fairfield, California} As a fledgling adult who moved away from home for college then medical school, my family often made trips to visit me, especially to drop off or prepare a home-cooked meal (I lived 30 minutes away from home for college and 7 hours away for medical school).  Now that I’ve completed all my training, I … Continue reading

Something New
Personal

Something New

{Upland, California} My life throughout medical school was pretty monotonous: wake up, attend lecture, eat, go to anatomy lab, study, eat, sleep.  I started to exhibit more signs of life once residency started, though limitations to participate in enjoyable activities always existed.  I could never rid of feeling guilty each time I did something other than … Continue reading

Lessons of the Week
Personal

Lessons of the Week

{Playa Del Rey, California} If you read my last post, you’ll know that my mood has been a bit off this week.  Yet, now that it’s Friday, I can reflect on the positive lessons I learned from the experience. 1.  Be cautious of making any crucial decisions when you’re feeling emotionally off.  Let’s just say that losing control of my … Continue reading

Grief In Repeat
Personal / therapy

Grief In Repeat

{Upland, California} Upon driving into my garage coming home from work this evening, I suddenly burst into tears as the garage door slowly closed behind me.  I haven’t felt like myself at all this past week.  I tried my hardest to discern the reason for my melancholic mood and pinpointed a series of events that occurred after the subject … Continue reading

Let Go
Personal / therapy

Let Go

{Ventura, California} Several of my readers know how much I struggle with self-care and criticize myself on days that I feel less productive (I wrote about the subject here, here, and here).  I’m starting to let go of the guilty, judgmental thoughts, which I’m sure are ingrained in the minds of many others like myself who’ve spent … Continue reading

Contemplating Psychiatry?
Psychiatry

Contemplating Psychiatry?

As the 3rd year of medical school approaches, medical students typically narrow down their specialties of choice, and if unsure, feel rather overwhelmed since the decision practically solidifies their field of practice for the rest of their careers (though yes, it is possible to switch specialties during training).  Did I know at birth that I wanted to … Continue reading

Residency Memories
Personal

Residency Memories

{Voodoo Doughnut, Eugene, Oregon} I enjoy taking a stroll down memory lane every once in awhile to reminisce about the past.  While trying to find a photo for my next blog post, I came across pictures of fun times in Oregon during residency training.  In effort not to embarrass my fellow colleagues (think trashy theme party, dancing … Continue reading

Drift Away
Personal

Drift Away

{San Diego, CA} My whole week was a bit of a blur.  I sometimes wish that I could take a vacation for a few months and have no responsibilities whatsoever.  Where would I go?  I have no idea.  What would I do?  No clue.  Come to think about it, having no responsibilities for an extended period of … Continue reading

Teaching Influence
Psychiatry

Teaching Influence

{Malibu, CA} Current thought: I’m glad I turned out to be a decent psychiatrist. I remember being an eager medical student during an internal medicine rotation and asking a consulting psychiatrist the reason he diagnosed two of my elderly patients with schizophrenia.  I anxiously awaited his response (Note: I highlight the word elderly because diagnosing … Continue reading

Antidepressant Awareness
Psychiatry

Antidepressant Awareness

I have a love/hate relationship with antidepressants, specifically selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs) and serotonin norepinephrine reuptake inhibitors (SNRIs).  Basically, I love them when they actually help my patients, but hate the intolerable withdrawal that may occur when taking patients off of them.  If you’ve ever contemplated abrupt discontinuation of an antidepressant, consult your doctor before stopping them altogether, … Continue reading

Finding Balance
Lifestyle / Personal

Finding Balance

{McDowell Sonoran Preserve, Scottsdale, AZ} During my stay in Arizona, I was fortunate to reunite with friends from my residency training program and was especially excited to spend time with one of my closest friends from medical school.  One of the subjects we talked about most was the struggle to obtain or achieve work/life balance.  Balance and avoidance of burnout … Continue reading

Weekend Reflection
Personal

Weekend Reflection

{Ventura Pier, CA} In order to take charge of my life after a stressful week, I made the decision to temporarily cut back on certain responsibilities.  In the past, I rarely said “no” to projects or other opportunities, however, as I mentioned in my last post, I’ve been extremely overwhelmed and need some time to regroup. … Continue reading

Numb
Personal / therapy

Numb

I honestly didn’t want to write a blogpost today.  The main reason being that I’m not in a peppy mood, but why should blogging only be about happy thoughts when reality is that human beings experience a full range of emotions? My current emotion = numb.  I participated in a suicide debriefing at work today, which is … Continue reading

Casual Fridays
Lifestyle

Casual Fridays

{Scripps College, Claremont, CA} To lighten up the mood, I decided to create a series that highlights a bit more about my lifestyle as a busy physician, in addition to specific interests related to fitness, fashion, food, and travel. When I first started my blog during residency, my original goal was to create a lifestyle blog, … Continue reading