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Out of Isolation
Medicine / Psychiatry

Out of Isolation

{Calistoga, California} I noticed that my latest posts convey far less emotion than usual.  My reserve for tolerating stress had reached maximum capacity, which I realized upon my first day back at work from vacation three weeks ago as exhaustion immediately erased any sense of relaxation from my trip.  Perhaps I should have requested two weeks off instead of … Continue reading

Reconnect
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Reconnect

{Miami Beach, Florida} Lately, my ability to write and stay connected via my blog and social media requires far more effort than usual.  I’ve written in previous posts that when life gets overwhelming, one of the first things that fall to the wayside is my blog.  I’m trying hard to stay consistent on posting because the … Continue reading

Reset, Recharge
Personal

Reset, Recharge

{Miami Beach, Florida} I talk A LOT about mental health (in case you haven’t noticed), so I’ve appreciated the opportunity to put psychiatry-related thoughts aside for the last week while on vacation.  And I haven’t psychoanalyzed one thing while in Florida, which is a record for me!  I recognize how burned out I was getting, especially … Continue reading

Much Needed
Lifestyle

Much Needed

{Miami, Florida} I’m constantly testing my limits as to how long I can continue working before I become extremely stressed-out and less pleasant to be around, which usually indicates I’m overdue for a vacation.  When I scheduled my vacation months ago, I had a feeling I’d be overexerting myself having too large of a time gap in … Continue reading

Being Me
Personal / Psychiatry

Being Me

{Chino, California} My group therapy session last week left me feeling rejected, embarrassed, sad, self-conscious, and angry (all in that order).  Somehow, I became the focus during group and the subject matter stirred up emotions of being an outcast preteen, which I thought I’d outgrown.  I didn’t have very many friends in elementary school.  Kids often made fun of me and singled … Continue reading

A Cluttered Mind
Personal / Psychiatry

A Cluttered Mind

Current state of mind = disorganized. My typical morning routine before heading to work looks pretty turbulent and disjointed.  I usually hit the snooze button several times, check my email and various social media accounts in bed with my eyes half open (and probably “like” the most random, obscene pictures on Instagram and Facebook while in a … Continue reading

Mother’s Day Note
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Mother’s Day Note

{Napa, California} Oftentimes, I observe my mom and wish that I could match her levels of energy, thoughtfulness, and ability to multi-task.  Fortunately, some of her traits were passed on to me, though I still hope for late-onset development of her culinary skills.  Even as an adult, if I’m ever out of line or “misbehave” in any way, my mom is the … Continue reading

Trapped In A Role
Psychiatry

Trapped In A Role

I met some of my most memorable patients while moonlighting on an inpatient psychiatric ward during my final year of residency.  One of the patients I was assigned to was labeled as the highest-risk for agitation (he was restrained and placed in seclusion two nights prior), so the staff warned me, remained on standby, and closely … Continue reading

Home Sweet Home
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Home Sweet Home

{Fairfield, California} As a fledgling adult who moved away from home for college then medical school, my family often made trips to visit me, especially to drop off or prepare a home-cooked meal (I lived 30 minutes away from home for college and 7 hours away for medical school).  Now that I’ve completed all my training, I … Continue reading

Something New
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Something New

{Upland, California} My life throughout medical school was pretty monotonous: wake up, attend lecture, eat, go to anatomy lab, study, eat, sleep.  I started to exhibit more signs of life once residency started, though limitations to participate in enjoyable activities always existed.  I could never rid of feeling guilty each time I did something other than … Continue reading

Lessons of the Week
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Lessons of the Week

{Playa Del Rey, California} If you read my last post, you’ll know that my mood has been a bit off this week.  Yet, now that it’s Friday, I can reflect on the positive lessons I learned from the experience. 1.  Be cautious of making any crucial decisions when you’re feeling emotionally off.  Let’s just say that losing control of my … Continue reading

Grief In Repeat
Personal / therapy

Grief In Repeat

{Upland, California} Upon driving into my garage coming home from work this evening, I suddenly burst into tears as the garage door slowly closed behind me.  I haven’t felt like myself at all this past week.  I tried my hardest to discern the reason for my melancholic mood and pinpointed a series of events that occurred after the subject … Continue reading

Let Go
Personal / therapy

Let Go

{Ventura, California} Several of my readers know how much I struggle with self-care and criticize myself on days that I feel less productive (I wrote about the subject here, here, and here).  I’m starting to let go of the guilty, judgmental thoughts, which I’m sure are ingrained in the minds of many others like myself who’ve spent … Continue reading

Contemplating Psychiatry?
Psychiatry

Contemplating Psychiatry?

As the 3rd year of medical school approaches, medical students typically narrow down their specialties of choice, and if unsure, feel rather overwhelmed since the decision practically solidifies their field of practice for the rest of their careers (though yes, it is possible to switch specialties during training).  Did I know at birth that I wanted to … Continue reading

Residency Memories
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Residency Memories

{Voodoo Doughnut, Eugene, Oregon} I enjoy taking a stroll down memory lane every once in awhile to reminisce about the past.  While trying to find a photo for my next blog post, I came across pictures of fun times in Oregon during residency training.  In effort not to embarrass my fellow colleagues (think trashy theme party, dancing … Continue reading

Drift Away
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Drift Away

{San Diego, CA} My whole week was a bit of a blur.  I sometimes wish that I could take a vacation for a few months and have no responsibilities whatsoever.  Where would I go?  I have no idea.  What would I do?  No clue.  Come to think about it, having no responsibilities for an extended period of … Continue reading