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Conquer Your Fears (Part 1)
Psychiatry

Conquer Your Fears (Part 1)

{Lake Tahoe, California} At the request of one of my awesome readers, I am writing a post on conquering our fears.  Being an ENFP personality type (Extroverted, Intuitive, Feeling, Perceiving), I interpreted this in a more global, existential sense: getting over the fears and barriers that may interfere with moving forward in life and/or discovering one’s … Continue reading

Set Free
Personal

Set Free

{International Rose Test Garden, Portland, Oregon} Okay, I’ll be honest.  I’d much rather watch a documentary on Netflix (anyone have any suggestions?) and let my mind wander than write a blog post right now.  Escaping to Oregon earlier this week for the first leg of my vacation provided a perfect combo of nostalgia, tranquility, and connection. … Continue reading

Open Doors
Personal / Psychiatry

Open Doors

Up until a few years ago when I graduated from residency, life appeared to have a linear, predictable path: obtain high school diploma, finish undergraduate degree, get accepted into medical school, graduate from residency, secure a well-paid job as a psychiatrist. Yet, throughout the entire process, I encountered several challenging experiences trying to adjust to each new phase.  When … Continue reading

Thankful Thursdays
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Thankful Thursdays

{Los Angeles, California} I haven’t done a Thankful Thursday post on my blog in awhile (though I do a weekly “Thankful Thursdays” series on my Snapchat account), but figured I’d do one this week especially since my two week vacation is coming up the following week, which I’m long overdue and looking forward to.  As I … Continue reading

Personal Independence Day
Lifestyle

Personal Independence Day

{Malibu, California} I recall previous 4th of July holidays spent working in the hospital, or on-call with my pager held tight as I nibbled on barbecue anxiously anticipating a flurry of calls regarding the behavioral management of alcohol-intoxicated patients.  This year, however, I am free from the responsibility of being on call, free from the hospital, free … Continue reading

Brighter Days
Personal

Brighter Days

{Napa, California} I am so appreciative of the supportive comments I received after sharing my personal experience of physician burnout.  I’ve had similar experiences, especially during medical school and residency, but never felt comfortable enough to share until recently.  In my practice, I work with so many patients who suppress their emotions.  I identify with them wholeheartedly … Continue reading

Out of Isolation
Medicine / Psychiatry

Out of Isolation

{Calistoga, California} I noticed that my latest posts convey far less emotion than usual.  My reserve for tolerating stress had reached maximum capacity, which I realized upon my first day back at work from vacation three weeks ago as exhaustion immediately erased any sense of relaxation from my trip.  Perhaps I should have requested two weeks off instead of … Continue reading

Reconnect
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Reconnect

{Miami Beach, Florida} Lately, my ability to write and stay connected via my blog and social media requires far more effort than usual.  I’ve written in previous posts that when life gets overwhelming, one of the first things that fall to the wayside is my blog.  I’m trying hard to stay consistent on posting because the … Continue reading

Reset, Recharge
Personal

Reset, Recharge

{Miami Beach, Florida} I talk A LOT about mental health (in case you haven’t noticed), so I’ve appreciated the opportunity to put psychiatry-related thoughts aside for the last week while on vacation.  And I haven’t psychoanalyzed one thing while in Florida, which is a record for me!  I recognize how burned out I was getting, especially … Continue reading

Much Needed
Lifestyle

Much Needed

{Miami, Florida} I’m constantly testing my limits as to how long I can continue working before I become extremely stressed-out and less pleasant to be around, which usually indicates I’m overdue for a vacation.  When I scheduled my vacation months ago, I had a feeling I’d be overexerting myself having too large of a time gap in … Continue reading

Being Me
Personal / Psychiatry

Being Me

{Chino, California} My group therapy session last week left me feeling rejected, embarrassed, sad, self-conscious, and angry (all in that order).  Somehow, I became the focus during group and the subject matter stirred up emotions of being an outcast preteen, which I thought I’d outgrown.  I didn’t have very many friends in elementary school.  Kids often made fun of me and singled … Continue reading

A Cluttered Mind
Personal / Psychiatry

A Cluttered Mind

Current state of mind = disorganized. My typical morning routine before heading to work looks pretty turbulent and disjointed.  I usually hit the snooze button several times, check my email and various social media accounts in bed with my eyes half open (and probably “like” the most random, obscene pictures on Instagram and Facebook while in a … Continue reading

Mother’s Day Note
Personal

Mother’s Day Note

{Napa, California} Oftentimes, I observe my mom and wish that I could match her levels of energy, thoughtfulness, and ability to multi-task.  Fortunately, some of her traits were passed on to me, though I still hope for late-onset development of her culinary skills.  Even as an adult, if I’m ever out of line or “misbehave” in any way, my mom is the … Continue reading

Trapped In A Role
Psychiatry

Trapped In A Role

I met some of my most memorable patients while moonlighting on an inpatient psychiatric ward during my final year of residency.  One of the patients I was assigned to was labeled as the highest-risk for agitation (he was restrained and placed in seclusion two nights prior), so the staff warned me, remained on standby, and closely … Continue reading

Home Sweet Home
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Home Sweet Home

{Fairfield, California} As a fledgling adult who moved away from home for college then medical school, my family often made trips to visit me, especially to drop off or prepare a home-cooked meal (I lived 30 minutes away from home for college and 7 hours away for medical school).  Now that I’ve completed all my training, I … Continue reading

Something New
Personal

Something New

{Upland, California} My life throughout medical school was pretty monotonous: wake up, attend lecture, eat, go to anatomy lab, study, eat, sleep.  I started to exhibit more signs of life once residency started, though limitations to participate in enjoyable activities always existed.  I could never rid of feeling guilty each time I did something other than … Continue reading