{With our new family dog, Levi}
Whenever I visit my parents’ home, I regress to a childlike state and become the complete opposite of how I am in my normal, adult life (i.e. instead of my usual high stress, on edge, active, rigid self, I wake up late, lounge around in sweats, and enjoy writing “nothing” on my to-do list). Hence, I’ve taken a brief mental break to reset/recharge and in my relaxed state, I realize this is the first time in eight years that I’ve had time off during the holiday (consider 2 years of hospital rotations during medical school, 4 years of residency training, and 2 years being the newbie doctor at my first job). I initially felt guilty about being away from the clinic for so long, but am aware that my ability to provide quality care declines the more burned out and overwhelmed I feel. I know how hard it can be to prioritize yourself, especially if you’re the caregiving type who’s used to putting others’ well-being before your own. I hope you are able to find time to care for yourself during the remainder of the year, and if not this year, then consider as a possible New Year’s resolution to put self-care amongst the top of your list.
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This picture is so so so adorable. It represents exactly what you describe. You look relaxed and well cared for =-)
Thanks Cindy! I actually do feel relaxed…it’s amazing how anxiety decreases by allowing yourself to do nothing lol
Omygosh cute photo!
thank u!
Nothing on your to-do list? But, it seems that you’re giving yourself a break spontaneously.
I wonder how aware you are that your friendly, free-flowing (well, except for occasional bullet points ;)) mode of expression in your blog contrasts with the “rigid” person you describe. Keep blogging; it’s good for you! And are you sure that it’s a “regression” to be girlish? After all, I’ve heard it said that the child’s toys and the adult’s reasons are but the fruits of the two seasons. (William blake) 
wonderful observation Tom. i’m working to feel comfortable in my own skin and bringing together my professional/rigid side in combo w/ my creative, free-flowing personality in harmony…this year has been the closest i’ve been at bridging my 2 sides, so you’re right..i must keep writing/blogging! thanks so much for pointing this out though…it took me awhile to process it, which is reflective of the challenge it has been for me in real life!
have a wonderful new year! 
I hope you have a good new year, too, and it certainly sounds like you will!
Enjoy! As the father of an MD infectologist daughter, that is my best advice: your careers and work are so demanding… You too need to take a break!

You spend your life helping others, don’t forget helping yourself from time to time!
hey girl…you need the way you are with your fam and the dog be the new normal =-) xoxoxo
Cindy — that’s so funny I was thinking of that similar concept today…I took so many breaks and have been allowing myself to relax. It feels so strange, but I feel a shift in my mentality of what’s considered normal
Ahhhh that’s wonderful your daughter is a doctor as well. I hope she’s taking your advice! I will try as well