There’s certain patients that you remember, some patients you struggle to recollect, and the patients who somehow manage to pop up in your mind for no apparent reason. Keeping patients alive was my goal during intern year; ensuring my patients’ safety was the goal of my 2nd. When you fail to attain that goal, the initial response is believing that there was nothing more you could do to save them. But after hours pass by, you find yourself replaying certain moments in your mind…over, and over again. Wondering. Pondering. Questioning if there were signs you wish you caught, but failed to recognize. But, the one thing you’ll always remember is their eyes.