What My Former Boss Told Me About My Wardrobe
Fashion / Personal

What My Former Boss Told Me About My Wardrobe

{Westlake Village, California} Though my social media name has the word “fashion,” my fashion sense during the initial stages of my professional career most definitely did not reflect any sense of the word.  During college, I apparently believed that it was appropriate to wear flip flops, cut off jeans, and a hooded sweatshirt as both a research … Continue reading

Mixed Feelings
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Mixed Feelings

{Inland Empire, California} I contemplated skipping my weekly blogpost today, mostly because I got a headache each time I sat down to type.  But then I recalled my previous pattern of taking brief hiatuses from blogging, which eventually turned into a year long hiatus, and were mostly triggered by feeling too overwhelmed or stressed at the … Continue reading

Love Thyself
Personal / therapy

Love Thyself

{Sonoma, California} Sure, when I first heard Hailee Steinfeld’s single, “Love Myself,” on the radio, I initially became excited that such a popular song celebrated a love for one’s self.  And even after dissecting the song’s lyrics (to discover the actual allusion to masturbation), I still remained inspired to write a post that paid homage to myself, particularly because I … Continue reading

Explore
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Explore

{Bubblegum Alley, San Luis Obispo, California} I know that the end of year 2015 is fast approaching, but I’m declaring a resolution for the remaining months: to be spontaneous and feel free to explore.  The restrictive years of medical education, training, and work, can be so draining.  Some of you may know that I work in clinic part-time … Continue reading

Find The Light
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Find The Light

{San Luis Obispo, California} Sometimes in the darkest moments, it’s hard to imagine that there’s light at the end of the tunnel.  Friends, family, or therapists may try and provide reassurance that life gets better, things get better, fate will lead you to something better, and that you deserve better.  Such thoughts sound so passive in nature, … Continue reading

Finding Your Way
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Finding Your Way

{Yountville, California} I woke up yesterday morning with a sense of dread and struggled to get out of bed, yet ended the day feeling energetic and liberated.  Lately, I’ve been making conscious efforts to prioritize myself for the sake of maintaining my sanity.  As a result, my mood and anxiety levels have improved almost instantaneously after … Continue reading

Set Free
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Set Free

{International Rose Test Garden, Portland, Oregon} Okay, I’ll be honest.  I’d much rather watch a documentary on Netflix (anyone have any suggestions?) and let my mind wander than write a blog post right now.  Escaping to Oregon earlier this week for the first leg of my vacation provided a perfect combo of nostalgia, tranquility, and connection. … Continue reading

Open Doors
Personal / Psychiatry

Open Doors

Up until a few years ago when I graduated from residency, life appeared to have a linear, predictable path: obtain high school diploma, finish undergraduate degree, get accepted into medical school, graduate from residency, secure a well-paid job as a psychiatrist. Yet, throughout the entire process, I encountered several challenging experiences trying to adjust to each new phase.  When … Continue reading

Thankful Thursdays
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Thankful Thursdays

{Los Angeles, California} I haven’t done a Thankful Thursday post on my blog in awhile (though I do a weekly “Thankful Thursdays” series on my Snapchat account), but figured I’d do one this week especially since my two week vacation is coming up the following week, which I’m long overdue and looking forward to.  As I … Continue reading

Brighter Days
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Brighter Days

{Napa, California} I am so appreciative of the supportive comments I received after sharing my personal experience of physician burnout.  I’ve had similar experiences, especially during medical school and residency, but never felt comfortable enough to share until recently.  In my practice, I work with so many patients who suppress their emotions.  I identify with them wholeheartedly … Continue reading

Reconnect
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Reconnect

{Miami Beach, Florida} Lately, my ability to write and stay connected via my blog and social media requires far more effort than usual.  I’ve written in previous posts that when life gets overwhelming, one of the first things that fall to the wayside is my blog.  I’m trying hard to stay consistent on posting because the … Continue reading

Reset, Recharge
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Reset, Recharge

{Miami Beach, Florida} I talk A LOT about mental health (in case you haven’t noticed), so I’ve appreciated the opportunity to put psychiatry-related thoughts aside for the last week while on vacation.  And I haven’t psychoanalyzed one thing while in Florida, which is a record for me!  I recognize how burned out I was getting, especially … Continue reading

Being Me
Personal / Psychiatry

Being Me

{Chino, California} My group therapy session last week left me feeling rejected, embarrassed, sad, self-conscious, and angry (all in that order).  Somehow, I became the focus during group and the subject matter stirred up emotions of being an outcast preteen, which I thought I’d outgrown.  I didn’t have very many friends in elementary school.  Kids often made fun of me and singled … Continue reading

A Cluttered Mind
Personal / Psychiatry

A Cluttered Mind

Current state of mind = disorganized. My typical morning routine before heading to work looks pretty turbulent and disjointed.  I usually hit the snooze button several times, check my email and various social media accounts in bed with my eyes half open (and probably “like” the most random, obscene pictures on Instagram and Facebook while in a … Continue reading

Mother’s Day Note
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Mother’s Day Note

{Napa, California} Oftentimes, I observe my mom and wish that I could match her levels of energy, thoughtfulness, and ability to multi-task.  Fortunately, some of her traits were passed on to me, though I still hope for late-onset development of her culinary skills.  Even as an adult, if I’m ever out of line or “misbehave” in any way, my mom is the … Continue reading

Home Sweet Home
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Home Sweet Home

{Fairfield, California} As a fledgling adult who moved away from home for college then medical school, my family often made trips to visit me, especially to drop off or prepare a home-cooked meal (I lived 30 minutes away from home for college and 7 hours away for medical school).  Now that I’ve completed all my training, I … Continue reading

Something New
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Something New

{Upland, California} My life throughout medical school was pretty monotonous: wake up, attend lecture, eat, go to anatomy lab, study, eat, sleep.  I started to exhibit more signs of life once residency started, though limitations to participate in enjoyable activities always existed.  I could never rid of feeling guilty each time I did something other than … Continue reading

Lessons of the Week
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Lessons of the Week

{Playa Del Rey, California} If you read my last post, you’ll know that my mood has been a bit off this week.  Yet, now that it’s Friday, I can reflect on the positive lessons I learned from the experience. 1.  Be cautious of making any crucial decisions when you’re feeling emotionally off.  Let’s just say that losing control of my … Continue reading

Grief In Repeat
Personal / therapy

Grief In Repeat

{Upland, California} Upon driving into my garage coming home from work this evening, I suddenly burst into tears as the garage door slowly closed behind me.  I haven’t felt like myself at all this past week.  I tried my hardest to discern the reason for my melancholic mood and pinpointed a series of events that occurred after the subject … Continue reading