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How I Connect With Our Future Doctors

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How I Connect With Our Future Doctors

Latino Medical Student Association National Conference 2016

I realize it has been a few weeks since my last blogpost and the reason is because I have been even busier since receiving wonderful opportunities to speak at conferences.  Blogging and being active on social media has provided an amazing outlet to share my views on mental health, yet speaking at conferences would also be a great way to directly connect with our future doctors and health care professionals.  I’m pretty open on my blog about my previous struggles with social anxiety, so although public speaking can be challenging and highly anxiety-provoking, it has been one of my best methods for overcoming my anxiety.

The video above is a quick edit of my participation as a speaker for the Latino Medical Student Association’s National Conference, which was held at my medical school, Western University of Health Sciences College of Osteopathic Medicine of the Pacific.  I hosted a workshop on ‘medical student burnout’ and was also a panelist for the Women In Medicine panel.  Speaking at my medical school was a reminder of how I’ve come full circle as a former struggling medical student and returning as a physician sharing my knowledge and experiences!

Video by Marlon Santos

April 26, 2016 5 comments
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Thankful Thursdays

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Thankful Thursdays

{Venice Beach, California}

For this week’s Thankful Thursdays, I would say that I am very thankful for one of my best friends from medical school, who flew into town for a quick visit.  My resolution for the remainder of the year (mentioned in my previous post) included being spontaneous and free to explore.  Surprisingly, in all my years living in southern California, I have never experienced biking along the beaches of Santa Monica and Venice, nor have I ever gone shopping on Abbott Kinney (a well-known boulevard located in Venice lined with trendy/urban shops, earthy/cool restaurants, and more).  We had a wonderful time catching up, eating delicious food, and discovering new fixtures in the area that we’d never noticed before.  I figure that Los Angeles still has a LOT to explore, therefore, to kick off my resolution, I might as well begin locally!

Thought of the Day:  What are you thankful for from this week?

For background information of the reasoning behind my Thankful Thursdays posts, check out my 1st post of the series here!  (And subsequent posts here, here, and here).

August 20, 2015 8 comments
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Psychiatry

Psychiatry Specialty of Choice

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Psychiatry Specialty of Choice

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{Miami Beach, Florida}

Though I graduated from psychiatry residency three years ago and am fully employed, I continue to receive email notifications and phone calls about Psychiatrist job openings on a daily basis.  Though I typically get annoyed by the regular phone calls and messages, a part of me feels thankful that I have a lucrative career in such high demand with job openings readily available if needed, however, a part of me also can’t help but question why there’s such a shortage in psychiatrists to fill the positions.  I wrote a previous post on reasons why Psychiatry is an amazing specialty to choose, but if any current premed or medical students have any questions/concerns about the field of Psychiatry, I’d love to connect with you and answer any questions you may have.  The field of Psychiatry is extremely rewarding and I’d do anything I could to promote it because there’s so many people in need of psychiatric services.

Thought of the Day: TO ALL PREMED, FUTURE DOCTORS, & MEDICAL STUDENTS — Is Psychiatry on your radar as a possible specialty?  And if not, would love to hear the reason why as well!  Comment below or email me at freudandfashion@gmail.com.

June 11, 2015 10 comments
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Home Sweet Home

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Home Sweet Home

{Fairfield, California}

As a fledgling adult who moved away from home for college then medical school, my family often made trips to visit me, especially to drop off or prepare a home-cooked meal (I lived 30 minutes away from home for college and 7 hours away for medical school).  Now that I’ve completed all my training, I return the favor for all the support I received and visit them in northern California as often as I can (except I’m not the best cook, so my family probably prefers that I NOT make the home-cooked meals).  I am currently staying at my parents’ place this weekend for a mini family reunion and feel pretty excited that I get to reunite with family members visiting from the Philippines whom I haven’t seen in years (and apparently there’s a boxing match everyone’s watching tonight).  We all have our own priorities in life and at one point my education and career took precedence over family, but I learned my lesson after missing out on numerous momentous events.  Having a lucrative career can bring a sense of satisfaction, but true happiness can’t be attained unless balanced with those who support you the most.

I hope you have a balanced weekend!

May 2, 2015 11 comments
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What Being a D.O. Means To Me

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What Being a D.O. Means To Me

 

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When approaching the door leading to my office, patients often look at the signage and proceed to ask one of the most frequently asked questions I receive: “What’s a D.O.?”

Several books and articles exist on explaining the background, history, and differences between being a D.O. (Doctor of Osteopathic Medicine) versus an M.D. (Doctor of Medicine).  Also, debates on which degree is better persist, though I personally find the feeds quite annoying and amusing at the same time (mostly because I remember diligently reading these forums before applying to medical school, which were predominantly biased towards M.D., but I’m able to confidently say that myself and all of my classmates/colleagues that I know of from my D.O. program turned out just fine).  So let me be clear that my purpose is NOT to exacerbate the debate between which degree to choose, but rather convey what being a D.O. means to me.

But first, let’s get the basics down regarding the two degrees (if you’re already aware of the basic similarities/differences, skip to the next paragraph):

  • What’s the same:
    • both undergo four years of medical school education (some schools actually offer both MD and DO programs where students attend the same lectures/classes, such as Michigan State and Rowan University).
    • both undergo the same amount of residency training depending on the program
    • both are fully licensed to practice medicine in the United States
  • What’s historically a bit different:
    • Different licensing exams: DOs take the COMLEX while MDs take the USMLE
    • DOs receive > 200 hours of osteopathic manipulative medicine training; MDs do not.
    • DO programs are historically known to accept the non-traditional applicant (for example, the average age of students are a bit older, may be non-science majors, or seeking a second career)
    • In 2008, 7% of practicing physicians in the U.S. were DO graduates and 68% were graduates from a U.S. MD schools (I tried to find more recent statistics, but couldn’t find an accurate source)
    • Osteopathic medicine is distinct in its philosophy that “all body systems are interrelated and dependent on one another for good health” (American Association of Colleges of Osteopathic Medicine)

I applied to both MD and DO programs for medical school and remained open to attending either one.  I interviewed at both types of programs, but only received acceptance letters from DO schools.  Perhaps I didn’t have the highest MCAT scores, GPA, or my interview responses weren’t impressive enough?  Well, whatever the reason, I was just happy that the DO admissions committee gave me the chance to prove that I’d make a good doctor.

The whole concept of a more holistic approach to medical practice offered by DO programs sounded ideal to me, yet at the time I was more focused on getting through school and graduating rather than on how the philosophies would impact my practice as a physician.  After graduating from medical school, I had the option to apply to either DO or MD residency training programs.  I applied to both, yet decided to pursue the osteopathic route when I heard about the opportunity to be a part of the first osteopathic psychiatry residency on the west coast.  As the oldest of 33 grandchildren, it was inherent of me to jump on the opportunity to help trailblaze a new program (my program director nicknamed me Hiawatha).  I knew that my decision posed potential limitations in obtaining a future job since a few organizations still don’t accept psychiatrists certified under the osteopathic board.  However, I took the risk because I saw more value in being the first to graduate from and help shape a new, developing program.

For me, being a DO fits my personality and what I’ve grown to stand for in my practice: being integrative, holistic, and preventative.  I truly believe that without such an emphasis on integrative medicine as one of the main tenets of the program, I wouldn’t be the physician that I am today.  Therefore, it’s no wonder that 50% of the graduates from DO programs become general practitioners (family practice, internal medicine, emergency medicine, etc).  I initially despised having to attend osteopathic manipulation classes, and even failed my very first practical exam.  Yet, the hands-on approach made me unafraid to touch my patients.  Each psychiatrist is different, but for the most part human touch provides a sense of comfort and connection.  A few of my patients politely ask for a hug, and if appropriate, I unhesitatingly oblige.

And in some unique way, I feel that being a DO caused me to work harder in a field predominantly filled with MDs to make my presence and way of practicing known.  When a large, metropolitan county declined to consider me for a job due to my credentials, I utilized the rejection as motivation to persevere rather than a barrier.

And most importantly, I used to feel bombarded by the numerous, large framed portraits of osteopathic medicine’s founder, Andrew Taylor Still, MD, which hung in almost every corridor of each osteopathic institution.  However, after feeling frustrated with several aspects of current practices in medicine, I’m undoubtedly far more appreciative and understanding of AT Still’s motivation in the 1800s as an MD to create a method of practice that rose from adversity (he lost 3 of his 12 children to viral meningitis with no method of saving them even as a physician himself) and frustration (an over-dependence on medications and the sometimes harmful medical practices of the time).  I actually wish his story was more widely publicized because he epitomizes successful individuation from mainstream medical practices amidst much scrutiny and opposition.

In the field of psychiatry, where Western medicine can’t always explain nor provide the most adequate treatment via pharmaceuticals, wouldn’t it be great if we had more modern day AT Stills to branch off and create a newer system of viewing and practicing mental health?  I’m truly frustrated with the current practices particularly the overemphasis on medications alone.  The number of overdoses (100 people die from drug overdoses everyday in the U.S.), medicated children as early as infancy, continue to rise.  Medications are only one component of treatment, but greater emphasis should be placed on developing resiliency, acknowledging the individual’s unique traits, and treating the person holistically rather than symptomatically.

AT Still put it best when he said the following:

“An absolute demand for revolution is before us at this date and time, for there is a demand for a progressive step in the line for treating disease.  For a number of days I have been haunted by the feeling that we are in danger of getting into a rut unworthy of higher consideration than should fall to mere imitation.  Let us not be governed to-day by what we did yesterday, nor to-morrow by what we do to-day, for day by day we must show progress.”

April 30, 2015 23 comments
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Psychiatry

Contemplating Psychiatry?

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Contemplating Psychiatry?

As the 3rd year of medical school approaches, medical students typically narrow down their specialties of choice, and if unsure, feel rather overwhelmed since the decision practically solidifies their field of practice for the rest of their careers (though yes, it is possible to switch specialties during training).  Did I know at birth that I wanted to become a psychiatrist?  Absolutely not.  I went through my first two years of medical school wondering when the light bulb in my head would go off as to which specialty I was destined to go into.  Then, it finally hit me — I’m meant to become a cardiologist!  Well, that idea was short-lived once I became aware of the required six years of training after medical school (much respect to the cardiologists out there).  Fortunately, I discovered Psychiatry, which is the one specialty where I actually felt motivated to go above and beyond to learn more and felt passionate about!

If Psychiatry is listed among your options, then the following are reasons I believe Psychiatry is an amazing specialty to choose:

  • Psychiatrists are in high demand.  There will truly never be enough psychiatrists to meet the current and growing needs, which means more job opportunities and lucrative possibilities to create your own practice.
  • Psychiatrists in the United States make a mean annual income of $182,700 (US Bureau of Labor Statistics, 2014).  Sure, Medscape notes this number ranks at the bottom third compared to the annual income of other specialties, but if lifestyle and job satisfaction are factored in, the ranking can be considered insignificant (see next bullet point).  In Australia, psychiatry is found to be one of the best financially rewarding careers.
  • Lifestyle can be catered to your preference.  I currently work part-time and know several psychiatrists working part-time who feel content with their flexible schedules.  One of my friends practices telepsychiatry in the comfort of her own home, which has been perfect for raising her growing family.
  • Establish your niche or dabble in different areas.  Several psychiatrists have their own solo practice, yet are able to divide their time into percentages working with other health organizations, academia/teaching, treatment centers, etc.  And when establishing your own niche, your expertise working with specific populations can be highly sought after (for example, I was mentored by various specialists including a bipolar disorder specialist, sports psychiatrist, developmental disabilities specialist, psychoanalytic psychiatrist…the list goes on).  I’m still trying to establish my own niche (I have way too many interests)!
  • There are multiple subspecialties (including child/adolescent, geriatric, consultation/liaison, sports, forensic, pain management).
  • If having a private practice is the goal, then the cost for equipment is minimal compared to other specialties (after all, the main instrument needed to practice is yourself).
  • Many opportunities exist for research, especially since there is much left to be learned about the brain.
  • Multiple settings exist for work: outpatient, inpatient, ER psych, community mental health, academia, college/university/student health, Veterans Administration, residential treatment centers, subacute treatment centers, drug detox and rehabilitation centers, consultation, Assertive Community Treatment (ACT) model, telepsychiatry, correctional system, etc.
  • If your goal is to have an extended career, most psychiatrists continue to work until late in life with only 18% retiring before age 65.
  • And residency training is only four years!

If you have any other questions or comments about the field, then feel free to post in the comment section below.  I would love to hear from you especially since I remember what it was like to reach such a pivotal point in my education/career.

 

Photo by Marlon Santos

 

April 8, 2015 15 comments
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Residency Memories

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Residency Memories

{Voodoo Doughnut, Eugene, Oregon}

I enjoy taking a stroll down memory lane every once in awhile to reminisce about the past.  While trying to find a photo for my next blog post, I came across pictures of fun times in Oregon during residency training.  In effort not to embarrass my fellow colleagues (think trashy theme party, dancing to “Baby Got Back,” and movie nights with some of the most grotesque films ever made, to name a few examples), I limited the photos to the least embarrassing (not surprisingly, many photos were eliminated), pictures mostly of myself, or with the obtained consent from my residency friends (if identifiable in the photos).  I may constantly mention the hardships of the journey through medical school and residency, but my three years spent in Oregon brought about many friendships, fun experiences, and memorable moments that I’ll treasure forever.

{Residency Retreat at Black Butte, Oregon}

{Wine Tasting in the beautiful Willamette Valley, Oregon}

{My 1st time golfing}

{Good thing I didn’t get graded on my Pictionary skills because I clearly would’ve failed}

{Oregon Medical Association conference in Bend, Oregon}

{My 1st time snowshoeing, Bend, Oregon}

{My Princess-themed party that my awesome co-residents threw for me before graduation}

April 2, 2015 6 comments
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Fresh Start

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Fresh Start

{Napa, California}

I’m excited about the new year, but must admit that I’m in a strange transition phase where my professional identity and personal identity are at odds with one another.  Most of my life has been devoted to my education and in many ways I believe those years halted my personal development.  When most of my childhood friends were getting married and starting their own families, I spent most of my days studying, memorizing, listening to lectures, getting grilled by senior physicians, studying so that I don’t look like an idiot in front of senior physicians, eating, sleeping (then repeat).  My free time was spent either catching up on sleep or celebrating to make up for the fact that I spent several straight weeks studying (I think I’ve used the word “studying” way too many times in this post already).

“I wanted to become a doctor so I could serve others.  And because of that I’ve lost everything.  But I’ve also gained everything.”  ~ ‘Patch Adams’

Being in my mid-30’s, I certainly miss the vibrancy that came effortlessly as an energetic 20-something year old.  I recall working a 12 hour overnight shift in the Labor & Delivery unit, then heading straight to the airport (with only 1 hour of sleep) and boarding the plane in my scrubs in order to attend my sister’s graduation that day in San Francisco, then flying back the next morning (in my scrubs) to make it in time for another 12 hour shift.  Time flew by way too fast.  Before you know it, I’m at it again struggling to get a few days off in order to attend my sister’s wedding.  I barely had any time to think…and little time to fully enjoy life outside of school.  But that’s the path I chose and I am grateful with no regrets.   Now that I have a bit more free time, I am mindful that the more I allow myself to savor the present moments and especially invest in my own self-care, the better a person and physician I become.  After all, how can I care for others if I can’t take care of myself?  In the past, my new year’s resolutions consisted of external measures such as losing weight, getting high grades/scores on exams, etc.  But this year my goals are more internal and self-fulfilling…

My goals for 2015:

  • be present
  • be mindful
  • be open to self-discovery
  • be aware of my need for self-care.

Thought of the Day:  What personal goals would you like to achieve in 2015?

Photos by Marlon Santos

January 8, 2015 11 comments
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Stay or Leave?

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Stay or Leave?

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Office Balcony Sunset

I recently made a difficult decision regarding my job, which triggered feelings of uncertainty, fear, and self-doubt.  In the process of contemplating my decision, I recalled one of my patients, a college student who struggled with depression.  Despite going to a prestigious university, his overwhelming fear of not getting accepted into law school further exacerbated his depressive symptoms.  I responded with seemingly consoling statements such as “you’re still young…you’ll get there…you have a lot going for you…I went through the same situation and it worked out okay.” However, my attempts to reassure really weren’t reassuring at all (it’s well known in psychiatry that reassurance generally doesn’t reassure mostly because the statements fail to validate the patient’s current experience).  Reflecting back, I realized that in the moment I didn’t want to relive my own pain, uncertainty, and fears that I experienced in my process of applying to medical school.  I recalled the discouragement I felt with each rejection letter I received.  And I was still feeling discouraged at my current job.  Since I gained insight from connecting his experience with my own, I looked forward to validating his feelings at his next appointment.  Unfortunately, he cancelled his appointment and never returned.

I realize that contemplating decisions regarding a career path, relationships, love, and pretty much anything pertaining to life in general, makes us vulnerable and uncomfortable.  The idea of change can trigger fear and act as a barrier towards future ventures.  After a year long process, I finally decided to resign.  My anxiety peaked even more because I felt uncertain of the next step to take.  Where do I go from here?  Will I feel happier?  Will I regret my decision?
Seeking motivation to push forward and take risks, I read quotes by famous writers, all with similar themes to never give up, choose the “road less traveled,” try new things, and learn from your mistakes.
The dangers of life are infinite, and among them are safety.  ~ Goethe
Yet, it took being on a plane last night watching The Amazing Spiderman 2 hearing Gwen Stacy (played by Emma Stone) give her valedictorian speech to make me realize how mainstream and pervasive this dilemma is:
“…I say it today of all days to remind us that time is luck. So don’t waste it living someone else’s life, make yours count for something. Fight for what matters to you, no matter what. Because even if you fall short, what better way is there to live?”
As mentioned above, my decision involved resigning from my highly-desired, well-paid job in order to take control of my life, practice, and career.   Since my last day, I have mixed emotions of feeling liberated, hopeful, excited, yet completely scared at the same time.
I made the right decision.
“…you can fail at what you don’t want, so you might as well take a chance on doing what you love.”  
                ~Jim Carrey
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Putting in work at my new office in West Hollywood
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Photos courtesy of Marlon Santos (Diamond Reel Media)
September 10, 2014 24 comments
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Delayed Journey

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Delayed Journey

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Sedona, AZ

Confusion about my career path, difficulties prioritizing, and a busy schedule are the only excuses I have for going eight whole months without writing a blog post.  If you asked me one year ago to describe how I envisioned my life would be post-residency, I would have said “happy,” “free,” “liberated,” “fun.”  However, a few months after buying my first house, getting my first paycheck, studying three straight months for the Psychiatry board exam, and passing the Psychiatry board exam, I thought to myself — “Is this it?  Is this really what I spent 12 grueling years after high school working towards??”  Survival was my primary goal throughout medical training, but once I gained confidence and knew I’d survive, I focused on sharpening my clinical skills.  Then, finally, I prioritized my time towards getting a job (after all, who wants to spend > $200K on an education and not end up with your dream job?).  Yet, throughout my education, there was never mention of the emotional toll that the transition from post-graduate school to real life could take.  After graduation, I experienced some “happy” and “free” moments, but had an equal amount of depressing moments (if you’ve read past blog posts, you’ll know this usually involves immersing myself in reality tv and slacking off on workouts).  At times, I wished I was back in the student role where you have a built-in support system of friends and supervisors to consult on a regular basis.  I have a wonderful job, but am still waiting for some form of delayed gratification.

I eventually grew tired of sitting around and waiting, so I went on trips in hopes to gain clarity and direction on the next steps to take in life.

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I stopped beating myself up about having a lazy exercise routine and joined a Crossfit gym.

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Photos courtesy of CFA

Then, moved into my new home.

I’m not 100% certain of what’s next in my life journey, but I’m happy to say that I’m stronger than ever, finally moving forward, and excited to find out!

What types of things have you done to gain clarity when you’ve felt stuck?

September 5, 2013 18 comments
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